Dream Interpretation
Last night/this morning, I had a troublesome dream. It’s not
a nightmare in that it wasn’t terrifying or evocative of petrifying scenes. It’s
troublesome because it involved a complex scenario in which an ex-lover and I
were living out an almost romantic-angsty-comedy narrative. I hold no ill will
towards this person. In fact, I actively wish them well. We don’t have regular
communication. And, I’m in the happiest relationship with a true and right love—with
another person entirely. Generally, I don’t believe dreams’ messages are
literal. So, I feel that this dream can’t be an indictment on my current
romantic relationship—especially when I know that it is a cosmically and
karmically important relationship: A sort of reward for all the sacrifices I’ve
made and lessons I’ve helped others learn. While I normally would go to
somebody with the spiritual gift of dream interpretation or use the Edgar Cayce method of dream interpretation to glean dreams’ messages,
I decided to use a tarot card spread. I feel incredibly vulnerable sharing this
with the world. But, I know I’m meant to do this in order to help others grow.
Revealing my vulnerability to others will inform my compassionate interactions
in the future. May the LORD grant me the wisdom to understand the information
His messengers send me. I ask this in Yeshua’s name.
The tarot card spread I used to assist my understanding is
one called “Dream Interpretation Spread” by user @dreamintuition. The tarot deck I used for this reading is the Tarot Illuminati.
Card 1.) What needs to be expressed? (Message) “Four of
Wands” Happiness and the ability to live a materially secure life is now—and is
coming (perhaps manifested as a formal sanction such as marriage). The happy,
stable family life I’ve always desired (and, once believed I would never have)
is now. And, it is evolving. Also, all the inner-work I’ve done to align myself
with Higher Self/Higher Purpose is paying off. My confidence is the highest it
has ever been. Now that I have a healthy self-love, I am able to show others
that they, too, can love themselves despite the turmoil of their life’s
experience.
Card 2.) What is blocking that expression? (Defense) “Queen
of Pentacles” Ah. I’m beginning to see why the ex-lover has appeared in this
dream. One of the many talents/scenarios/requisites for the fullness of Card 1
(“Four of Wands”) to manifest is a mastery of money, resources, and nurturing
qualities (be it family issues or co-creative endeavors). My ex-lover, in real
life (not in the dream), had many reasons for not making it work out with me:
One of which is analogous to what happens with Queen of Pentacles energy is overwhelmed
by the demands of a fast-paced world (coupled with not knowing what they really
wanted). When blocked, the Queen of Pentacles energy becomes pessimistic,
materialistic (or, being bummed out that their social status isn’t aligned with
the materialism of non-spiritual society), and fatigue. No wonder they couldn’t
make it work with me. And, now I’m sure that this dream isn’t about them. It’s definitely
a message for me.
Card 3.) What provoked this dream? (Recent Event) “Three of
Pentacles” The frustration of not being able to fully express myself by
marrying my creativity (and works which come from that creativity) with livelihood
brought about this dream. Which, incidentally, was also a frustration that my
ex-lover endured during the time I desperately wanted committed romance to
bloom for the two of us.
Card 4.) What issue needs to come to surface? (Unconscious
Dilemma) “Temperance” Woah. Nail on the head here, Source/God/Universe. Like my
ex-lover, the issue I must address is balancing all the aspects which make up a
full life. Being so impassioned in one area in life can cause neglect in
another part of life (i.e. being so wrapped up in a fiery, whirlwind romance at
the expense of focusing on self-improvement). The issue is as basic as be patient
(be balanced) in making plans regarding synthesizing my creative endeavors with
livelihood. Don’t put things on hold in other aspects of my life. And, carve
out time every week toward my plan.
Card 5.) How can I heal or resolve this issue? (Lesson) “Ace
of Wands” Go ahead and start writing the business plan. Just because I don’t
have everything figured out doesn’t mean I can’t put some strategies in motion.
In fact, it’s the patient, thoughtful process which will bring about the
fullness of my vision. Get to it. Start. Don’t put off the dream.
Amen.
